Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Refresh

Alright.
Today shall be a brand new day..
Though I am now stuck with an expensive yet not-so-nice hair cut, oh well, but life must go on..

Shing shall not waste time today..





Why is it that some people need to have a religion to know these?

I just want to be myself.
I dont mean only caring for myself only.
But instead, being a confident individual, while appreciating the goodness around me.
Every thing has its bad and good.
What's so bad when you have a BAD? GOODNESS might be just around the corner.

Just like ying and yang.
For without light, there will not be shadow.
Without darkness, you wont know what is light.
Without sunset, you wont know when is a brand new day with a new begining..
Without rain, there wont be rainbow.
Without failure, you wont see hope.


alright!

Now off to jogging!!

I am so unsure of myself

Before today, I told myself I am very happy, that I am truely happy about the things around me. My friends, my family and my school.

But all the sudden, I think I have choosen the wrong course.

Today is my Dad's birthday. I wanted to buy something for him, but I didnt. Guess why? I dont know.. I just suddenly feel like being cold blooded. I also dont know why.. Not that I feel happier this way.

I am just wondering why is that some people who are cold and quiet, but can be so likeable to people too.
Some people just look good and hav no substance inside, yet people will come flocking to them.
Some people just know how to be up there, just know how to go further than others of the same age, without even have to study. While there are people down here struggling to get up, trying to get up, or if not,
take a much longer time to reach the same level as that person, who in fact, has gone further than you think.

I want to be a useful person, that's what I want to be.

Previously, I always thought there is no point being smart and all.. No point working hard to be smart.
And so, I have decided to drop.
Ok. Now that I have failed my GP and I cant go to uni.
I should be happy actually.. Because I can now go to Lasalle and be and Arts student. Cool..

But the problem now is, Arts student does not equals to Useful person..

Science is supposed to be my best area of studies. I could have studied stuff like medicine..
Then i could be a doctor or something. Saving lives and all :) Not bad an idea.

*Pop the Bubble la **** ***

I need to go overseas to study in order to be a true certified doctor leh!! dream long long la shing..


Case Close for today.


Off to watch my drama now. Let me be a lazy person for once.
I want to see the miracle that I have seen before from those around me.

Now I need to find the light somewhere.

I hate to be lazy. Right now, I have no choice.

Sian.

Happy birthday daddy. Wish you best of health.
Though I dont say it, but I really appreciate everything you have done for me.
I will work hard..
But i shall wait for my light first..
Maybe stepping back a little, I can go further later?

Sigh.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

F1 racing

I never know watching F1 racing can be so exciting!!
Last night, I just witness the Championship of Spain's Fernando Alonso in European Grand Prix. He drove a McLaren and he won the F lor..
Very interesting Match.
Throughout the race, the rain kept pouring with stops here and there.

Within the first half an hour of the race, only 4 laps out of 60 laps were covered, and around 5 cars went out of course!! Meaning, those cars were out even b4 10% of the race..
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The interesting bit comes in during the second last LAP>> Ferrari was overtook by McLaren around the bent at the very crutical moment!!

Ferrari was very "bu shuang" at the end, even during the Trophy giving ceremony because McLaren bumped his car during the overtook..But too bad. Champion is still the champion. He didnt give a dam to the runner-up!!

haha.

And guess what? They were once from the same team..Now rival..
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The whole race lasted more than 2hours, excluding the half an hour delay due to the stupid rain.
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the results were as follows:
Positions after 60 laps of 60.
1. Alonso (McLaren)
2. Massa (Ferrari)
3. Webber (Red Bull)
4. Wurz (Williams)
5. Coulthard (Red Bull)
6. Kubica (BMW Sauber)
7. Heidfeld (BMW Sauber)

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The following was extracted from BBC news. For moer information, pls visit http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport2/hi/motorsport/formula_one/6910606.stm
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Lap 60: That's it. Alonso holds on to take his third victory of the season for McLaren. Hamilton finishes his frantic race in ninth, and out of the points for the first time in his career.
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Lap 57: Alonso leads and is now 2.4 seconds ahead of Massa. If he goes on to win then he will close the gap on team-mate Hamilton to two points at the top of the championship.
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Lap 56: Massa and Alonso are neck-and neck-now.
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Lap 54: And there is a real battle between Massa and Alonso for the lead now.
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Lap 52: It is raining now on certain parts of the track but Kovalainen is 87 seconds off the lead so surely he can't make up too many more places. --Booo
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Lap 51: Kovalainen says it is just starting to drizzle but no real rain yet.
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Lap 48: Hmmmm we might get some more drama afterall as more rain is predicted for seven minutes time. The crowd are hastily putting on their rain coats.

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Lap 42: Massa leads Alonso by six seconds at the front of the field but the double world champion looks like he is closing on the Ferrari. -- Beware the Alonso!
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Lap six: The safety car remains out. Heidfeld comes in to put on intermediates instead of full wets - race leader Winkelhock is already on full wets.
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1335: The cars restart under safety car conditions. And it's started to rain again. -- Wah lao!
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1330: There are a handful of drivers who won't be back on the track and they are; Vitantonio Liuzzi (Toro Rosso), Scott Speed (Toro Rosso), Nico Rosberg (Williams), Adrian Sutil (Spyker) and Britain's Jenson Button (Honda). -- So Sad. Blame the rain ya?
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Lap four: At the end of lap the race is red-flagged. They will line up behind the safety car for a restart, once the terrible weather has cleared. --Rain again..
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Lap one: Dramatic start to the race. Lots to say but first of all, Hamilton suffers a left-rear puncture.

The conditions are causing chaos and the two BMW Saubers have collided.

Alonso and Hamilton both in pits to change tyres.

Raikkonen tries to get into the pits but misses and he is still out on the slicks as the rain falls harder. Utter chaos.
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1303: The rain is falling harder now and the race is off.

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Saturday, July 21, 2007

My favourite Hits

Come on people!! Turn up your volume and listen to my favourite Hits..
Scroll to the middle of the page to see my playlist..
haha.
Anyway, I am now trying to win SHE concert tickets!! Hope the luck is with me, now that I have alot of time for these concerts.
Very funny leh, the more free time I have, the lazier I am..
The busier I am, the more I want to do more things.. haha..
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Yeah!! Going to watch Harry Potter tmr with simone and jan and 1 mystery person.. :)

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Wang Zi

Where is my Prince - Charming?
Can you please turn around and look at me again?
Why am I always liking someone that I cant fall in love with..
Not fair..

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Stress from work, school, people..

For the first time i feel like cursing..
School and work are both giving me so much problems..
Already I am not studying in a place I love most, and already my work is not easy, Yet they still give me problems!! Not as if my parents will know what to do when I tell them my problem lor..
They will just say,"Oh, then how? What are you going to do?"
When, I should be the one asking them, "What do you think I shld do?"..
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I am not blaming them cos they are afterall not very well-educated. And i am the one handling my own problems ever since young. they never once interfere with my life.
But i just dont like it when people doesnt have their own opinion..
That is the thing about Singaporeans.
No one likes to really voice out what they are not happy about.. Let alone their very own opinions.
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I miss my friends..
I miss dear.
I miss t19.
I miss my airport friends..
I miss crescent.
I miss my last time..
.. what the hell happened to me?
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An uncle at work once told me. People always say, And he meant SAY, Money is not the most important elements in life.. Friends and Family and Happiness are..
Nonsense, he said..
Without money, problems will come.
No happiness to talk about.
With money, problems will go.
Then you talk about family and friends..
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I am not trying to be materialistic here. But if my family were to be richer, I could have spend more time focusing on my studies, then struggling with 2 jobs I have now.. With one of them giving me hell lots of problems..
If we were richer,
I dont have to worry about my knee injury, which i havent seen a doctor till now.
I wouldnt have stopped my passion for running and end up like a fat pig here..
I could have bought a flute and further my passion for music.
I have alot of passion which I couldnt fulfill without money.. Really.
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People always say, shing, you can wait till you earn more money..
True.
But I want my passion to become part of my career.. And not using my career to find my passion...
Understand?
I want to achieve something when I am still young!!
Get it?
And i cant get a head-start when I dont have any capital..When We still have to bothe about whether we have money to see doctor.. Have to bother about with school will have the lowest school fees..
Have to bother about giving my mother a better life as soon as possible.
Have to bother about how can my dad get a break from work.. And the letter "B" that is stuck with him for the next 3 years!!
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My mother always say I have too many things I want to do. She said I shouldnt have too many ambitions, because we cant afford to.
I am trying to be ambitious here, but i'm just trying to achieve something to give them a better life..
I'm difererent, I am still young.
How about my daddy and mummy?
Everytime I hear them saying they have problems with their eyes and backs, pains here and there, makes me want to cry.. Cos i know my mum has a weak body though with a strong mind. My dad has a trying-to-be-strong mind, with a sad and unforgettable background..
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Yesterday, i treated my mum to sushi buffet at Sakae Sushi. For the first time, she had a sushi buffet..
And it has been long to see her stomach so full. haha..
Though it cost me $39.44, but to see that we had a fun time there,
it was all worth it..
:)

Monday, July 16, 2007

Work - Break

Ok. It has been long since i last blog.
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Work is fine, except for all the internal mangament problems in Goldin.
If only i'm staying there permantly, i would have joined SATS already.. More bonuses and more benefits.
But have to learn check-in. Sian diao..
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Currently, I got a week's break which i didnt want and I didnt request to have.. Too mant staffs i guess.
They said to give me this wk's break to settle my sch thing..
OK..What's there to settle?
Now i need money lor..
I miss my airport friends..
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Oh well..
I'll take this time to catch up with lots of things.. Friends, family, and most importantly, my TABLE!!

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I have been wanting to clear my table ever since Chinese New Year. It has nvr been done properly, despite the few attempts.. haha.
sigh.. Dear is not around. Felt abit lonely..

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Right.What shld i do now?
Ichi.) CLEAR MY TABLE. Now i just wanna keep the things i will use..
Ni.) Buy a roller blade.
San.) Art.. Been long since i last made anything..Let alone drawing.. My table has been too messy to do anything on it.
Shi.) Learn many tongues.
Go.) Buy clothes for my school..
waiting for yolene to buy a bag from japan for me..
Shichi.) Run. Swim. Ppl said i hav slimmed down alot, but i dont feel so at ALL..
8.) Develop my photos..Tidy my photos..
9.) Kbox.
10.) Lots more lah. Cant think..I can only think abt my lousy com now.. The sound system really cannot make it.

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Did i make a wrong turn? Did i make a wrong choice?