Stress from work, school, people..
For the first time i feel like cursing..School and work are both giving me so much problems..
Already I am not studying in a place I love most, and already my work is not easy, Yet they still give me problems!! Not as if my parents will know what to do when I tell them my problem lor..
They will just say,"Oh, then how? What are you going to do?"
When, I should be the one asking them, "What do you think I shld do?"..
...
I am not blaming them cos they are afterall not very well-educated. And i am the one handling my own problems ever since young. they never once interfere with my life.
But i just dont like it when people doesnt have their own opinion..
That is the thing about Singaporeans.
No one likes to really voice out what they are not happy about.. Let alone their very own opinions.
..
I miss my friends..
I miss dear.
I miss t19.
I miss my airport friends..
I miss crescent.
I miss my last time..
.. what the hell happened to me?
... .. .
An uncle at work once told me. People always say, And he meant SAY, Money is not the most important elements in life.. Friends and Family and Happiness are..
Nonsense, he said..
Without money, problems will come.
No happiness to talk about.
With money, problems will go.
Then you talk about family and friends..
...
I am not trying to be materialistic here. But if my family were to be richer, I could have spend more time focusing on my studies, then struggling with 2 jobs I have now.. With one of them giving me hell lots of problems..
If we were richer,
I dont have to worry about my knee injury, which i havent seen a doctor till now.
I wouldnt have stopped my passion for running and end up like a fat pig here..
I could have bought a flute and further my passion for music.
I have alot of passion which I couldnt fulfill without money.. Really.
..
People always say, shing, you can wait till you earn more money..
True.
But I want my passion to become part of my career.. And not using my career to find my passion...
Understand?
I want to achieve something when I am still young!!
Get it?
And i cant get a head-start when I dont have any capital..When We still have to bothe about whether we have money to see doctor.. Have to bother about with school will have the lowest school fees..
Have to bother about giving my mother a better life as soon as possible.
Have to bother about how can my dad get a break from work.. And the letter "B" that is stuck with him for the next 3 years!!
..
My mother always say I have too many things I want to do. She said I shouldnt have too many ambitions, because we cant afford to.
I am trying to be ambitious here, but i'm just trying to achieve something to give them a better life..
I'm difererent, I am still young.
How about my daddy and mummy?
Everytime I hear them saying they have problems with their eyes and backs, pains here and there, makes me want to cry.. Cos i know my mum has a weak body though with a strong mind. My dad has a trying-to-be-strong mind, with a sad and unforgettable background..
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Yesterday, i treated my mum to sushi buffet at Sakae Sushi. For the first time, she had a sushi buffet..
And it has been long to see her stomach so full. haha..
Though it cost me $39.44, but to see that we had a fun time there,
it was all worth it..
:)
posted by shing +++== + @ 7/18/2007 08:15:00 PM
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